Something inside me slips away

But I never notice

The strokes of her memory fade away

But I never notice

How do you mourn someone you already let slip away?  

My father mourns for his mother-

yet I never shed a tear

But I never notice until now that

She was just a person in my family

Not my life or my warmth.

Expected guilt peaks in

Why can’t I cry?

Why did I find her uncanny?

Guilt, shame, and sadness swirl in my stomach

I want to feel sorrow but

I fail

Bizzar calm stays within me

I am not shook

But I never notice

For I am the same because

How do you mourn someone you already let slip away?

She’s already gone

What can I do now?

The next day the earth cries for me

Tears pour down the lonely soil

Of the land that holds the lives of toil

Sharp pains light up the sky

Spamsims of heartache clash with the howling of the wind

But I never notice because

the universe cried for me.