What can i say-

I'm lost for words-

The things you done-

Thinking about them just hurts-

I've said it so many times- But do i believe it?

Do i want to? 

My burden is mine to bare- 

My sins are me to suffer for-

My problems will stem from my solution and if anyone says otherwise-

then i pay no mind-

For they know nothing-

Nothing of my pain-

Nothing of the pain i caused-

I am but a silent fraud-

For i speak nothing of value-

Yet the value of lies remain worthless- for there is to many of them that i speak-

The words i write-

The words i speak-

They are nothing but deceit.

i blame myself-

i blame my pain-

For in an ever-lying world-

Who am i to add to it?

Who am i to question the way of it?

Who am i to make it better?

Who gave me the right to choose a better path?

who allows me to forgive my past?

There is no forgiving you-

But there is no blaming you-

So what can i say?

I never done this-

Yet i stand here today-

I forgive-

The words feel like knives that stab my tongue

I forgive-

Gone are the days where i feel as if i do not belong-

I forgive-

Gone are My hands that tremble with the fear for my loved ones

I forgive-

I forgive the ones that gave me those burdens-

I Forgive-

I forgive the ones that lead me to sin-

I FORGIVE-

i forgive the ones who caused my heart to break-

I FORGIVE-

 i say it so many times- yet i cant say it to myself

I FORGIVE-

i've said it so many times-

Yet not once have i heard "I'm Forgiven"

For that is where i am-

Beyond the shallow grave where my dreams reside-

My pain is the gargoyle that watches over it all.

Fin