They all see me that way 

They all think I’m who they want to be

And that’s what I let them think

What I let them see

They see a titanium girl

Functional in so many ways

Strong and Independent 

Popular but not common

Haha

Yea 

That’s what I put off

I’m a titanium girl

I’m shiny and skinny

The perfect glass skin

The perfect white smile

The perfect body

I’m just 

Perfect

They see what I let them see

But it’s not what I see in the mirror

The girl in the mirror,

She’s just an empty reflection

Nothing is real to her

Sometimes she even stands outside of her body

Derealization

That’s what they call that

That’s not what she calls it though

She doesn’t call it anything at all

Nobody has told her what it is

She wouldn’t dare let anyone see who she sees

No one can see the glass girl

She’s shiny, sure

But she’s thin 

And fragile

She breaks easily

Nothing a little glue can’t fix

But something has to be cut to need to be glued.

She’s got that under control too.

But the titanium girl?

She wouldn’t dare

She’s too good for that 

She’s too strong to even have the thought of self-harm

She would never

But she’s not the girl in the mirror 

The girl in the mirror

She’s different

She cuts

She drinks

She smokes

She goes to too many parties

She’s different.

The titanium girl has been through a lot

A lot that made her titanium

She was supposed to be a glass girl

But she’s titanium

Or maybe she’s not

Maybe she’s just glass 

Spray-painted gray

To look like she's titanium

Maybe she’s not as perfect as she looks

Maybe everyone just assumes

And assuming...

Well you know what they say about that

But I guess it’s not assuming

I guess it’s more about believing

Because you only assume based on what you know

Whereas believing is thinking what you see is true

That’s what I think the reality is.

I guess that’s what they think the reality is too.