i spent my life wasting it

two, four, six, eight years

the years ticked by, rapid like seconds

ten, twelve, fourteen, sixteen years

i laughed, but did not show my dimples; i smiled, but did not show my teeth

eighteen, twenty, twenty-two, twenty-four years

i said i was fine, i pretended to be, i shut out the world

twenty-six, twenty-eight, thirty, thirty-two

but sometimes, i laid awake at night and prayed for a miracle

thirty-four, thirty-six, thirty-eight, forty years

you never saw the tears, never felt the throbbing heartache that burned my soul

forty-two, forty-four, forty-six, forty-eight years

wait, don't let my life end, it’s not my time

fifty, fifty-two, fifty-four, fifty-six years

stop the clock, let me take my life back

fifty-eight, sixty, sixty-two, sixty-four years

why did you never hear me crying out? i needed you

sixty-six, sixty-eight, seventy, seventy-two years

where you always there? was i the ignorant one all along?

seventy-two, seventy-four, seventy-six, seventy-eight years

wait, no, i never saw you in my darkness, i never saw your light

eighty, eighty-two, eighty-four, eighty-six years

how did i miss it all, how was i so blind

eighty-eight, ninety, ninety-two, ninety-four-

stop the clock, stop it. if this is the last thing i say before i die, i want you to know i'm sorry

for everything. all my mistakes. you've always waited for me. i wish i had listened to your quiet 

whispers to my broken, bleeding heart. i'd been hurt my whole life. i've done things i'm not   

proud of. i wanted to trust you, but i was afraid. is it too late to say yes?

ninety-six, ninety-eight, one hundred years.