Laying in the bath

Naked

Both literal and metaphorical

I’m vulnerable 

And I can’t help but think

How far I’ve come

Because I have the best friends 

And I have the best teachers

All the people I love

Who surround me

I wish the very best for them

Because I know I couldn’t always give that to them

And sometimes I felt alone

But mostly I feel cherished 

Because you compliment me

And love me

Like no man ever could or did

Laying in the bath

Naked

Both literal and metaphorical 

I’m vulnerable 

And when all I can think is

“Could I help?”

“Could I have done better?”

“Could I have been a better friend?

A better daughter and granddaughter?”

“Could I have fixed it?”

And I know my answer is that I could’ve done better

But I also know that it wouldn’t make them do better

It breaks my heart because I see you cry

And I never wanted you to feel like this

It breaks my heart to see you so heartbroken 

And when all I can think is

“Could I help?”

“Could I have done better?”

“Could I have been a better friend?

A better daughter and granddaughter?”

“Could I have fixed it?”

I’m happy that you’re gonna be happy

Even though it breaks us both to have to not live together 

But instead we hurt together 

At least we’re together nonetheless

At least we’re vulnerable together

Even though I’m most vulnerable now

I am so glad that you’re the reason I am

Because I never wanted to see you hurt

But I also never wanted to be vulnerable because of anyone else

You’re my hope and my sunshine

And you remind me of days when it didn’t hurt

Of days when I was free

You remind me of everything that I love

Because I really do love you

And I will never replace you

Because I never could

You’re my best friend and my soulmate

You make me the way I am

You make me 

Vulnerable 

And this doesn’t mean goodbye

Because I could never say that until the day I die

But it just means

That you made me vulnerable 

And you pulled me out of dark pits

Because you were vulnerable 

And even though we both hurt

We hurt together

So what does it matter?

Now

Laying in the bath

Naked

Both literal and metaphorical

I’m vulnerable