I still have the nursery rhymes memorized
but also the domestic abuse hotline and
the suicide prevention hotline
I still want you to make me vanilla milk
when I can't sleep but
you're busy on Facebook with other people's families
And I still want you to pray with me
and sing Jesus loves you
and tuck the covers in up to my chin
but
I still remember counting with you
how many of the 10 commandments
I had broken that day
and thinking
how disappointed you were in me
and how disappointed god must be
I was too young to be calling myself unlovable
but I was

I've been trying to be an adult since I turned 10
and to be honest
Wee Willie Winky sounds like a perv