What have I lost?

Sometimes it feels like,

What haven’t I lost?

The dad who gave life to me

Also gave me pain.

The mom who birthed me

Left me crying in the rain.

My favorite Grandpa,

With memories I have none.

My other Grandpa, 

With hope, I was done.

My Grandma, 

With the voice of an angel

Now views the world,

From a different angle.

I got a new family!

Isn’t that sound?

Now my new Father

Lies 6-feet below the ground.

There was this neighbor lady,

She felt like family.

It’s sad that she left this earth

And me.

Second Grandma,

Mother of my Father

 Not in this world,

She flies on another.

I’ve lost my trust.

I’ve lost my hope.

Where does it start to end?

I’ve lost one too many friends.

But what I fear more

Then life itself.

Is that I’ve begun

To lose myself.

What exactly is found?

Is it what gets a smile from a frown?

What if you find something,

That you wish would’ve stayed lost?

Is it really worth it?

At what cost?

I found a new family

Just to lose a parent again.

It’s okay,

‘Cause I found a friend.

Then, I found something

That really brings me down

It was the money 

That’s all they wanted.

For them,

That’s all that counted.

Hide and seek 

That was a fun game.

They would scream

And tell your name.

But, in that game

It was bad to be found.

You would try to be 

One with the ground.

So maybe there are some things

Meant to stay lost.

And it doesn’t matter,

What they cost.

Shield the eyes.

Shield the mind.

Maybe, just maybe,

It will stay lost this time.