How to tell people 

The thing they knew about me 

Has changed 

Maybe for better

Maybe for worse 

And I won’t be sorry 

When the arguments 

Throw me over the edge 

Out of their lives 

Feels like the closest friends

Try to understand 

And I know they're supporting me 

But I can’t get out of my head 

That it's wrong 

Every day I think I'm lying

That what I said 

Could be fake 

A scam 

And I’ve done too much damage 

Can’t go back now  

Because I'm a mess

A spillage of gas

With a lit match 

Fake smiles when they mention

Inside they don’t know

That I’m shielding my emotions

And it doesn't help

It has become my personality 

I really wish it hadn't 

I don’t know if it's true 

Or if I’m making it up 

I need to know

I’ve always been one way 

Now that's changed 

If only I could know 

With an easier escape