I’m terrified of the word love

For him and I 

I fear I am too young

Even if my sincerity shines now

I don’t want to regret it

The words I love you 

Crescendo in 

The base of my head

Can i just lay down 

And steal peeks 

At the guillotine

It hangs with hostility

Can i die yet

Please

Or drown in the soft creamy

Blue of my feelings

Do I desire the world

To know that I love you?

Do I even 

Fully accept

The cacophony 

That integrates with my old self

Is it all a mirage?

My mind vomit doesn’t 

Disgust

Him

It horrifies me

Tizzy and dizzy

My emotions

A weeble wobble

But love should be light

And keep me afloat

Not shoving my head 

In frigid waters 

But I’m just spinning

Please oh please

Can I just slow down

Can love stop hunting me