I’ll love you in your favorite dress

or wrapped in coffin sheets of linen

Tropical memories are soaked in ice

And I’ve started to freeze

But you promised the world would keep turning 

Despite your absence, visible, soaking through like the aftermath of a hailstorm.

I feel the cold nipping my fingertips 

Spiderwebs- cracks in my chest; 

Angels in my nightmares. 

And if it were my last night on Earth,

The disintegration of the atmosphere,

I’d meet you in the milky way; 

If the night never ended

And the walls kept closing in 

I’d catch you at the edge of the galaxy 

But I’m held in the trap of a promise on Earth until then,

It’s stitched and woven tight 

So I’ll recite prayers graffitied in window condensation

Pretend the highway lights are Heaven

Wish on passing cars with

Headlights brighter than dying stars 

And hold your words in an unreleased breath until my chest aches 

Until my hands shake

Until the stinging white in teary eyes steals my attention  

And I’ll pretend to know where you are.