Numb heart, numb mind.

She was perfect, in every way possible.

It was her.

It was always her,

She has everything I don't

Even though you always said the right things at the right time,

I still didn't know how to feel,

when you told me

the truth.

Part of me wants you back,

Part of me wants the life we had,

Part of me wants the happiness,

but every part of me knows

...no one can make me feel the way you did.

I feel like I betrayed her,

I feel like I stabbed her in the back,

I know she knows I still want him,

but she's my best friend,

and I can't do that to her.

not her, she means too much.

she's too special.

But I still fell and I fell hard...

for you.