I am the unwanted

I am the disgrace

One slip up,

And I’m a mess

A disappointment

A mistake

A mess up

Unwanted

I used to be wanted

Until the other came

Then i was tossed

Into the street

To live by myself

To fend for myself

To defend myself

Do everything

By myself

The only thing they notice

Is the mistakes

My failures

I am a mess

I try my best

It’s not good enough

It’s my best

But not the way

THEY want it

Trying my hardest

To get them to accept me

I wish i was wanted

I tried my hardest,

But not good enough

I was only 5

I was inside

Being ignored

“Play a game?”

I waited, for hours

No response

I walked my little feet

Back into the game room

I asked again

This time later

No response

I wasted time,

Thinking they would care

Telling them

how i felt

Being shut down

Every. Single. Time.

Rejected

Useless

Unhelpful

Complainer

Names I didn’t know..

They were bad

And to think

They cared

I brought this

On myself

Thinking

Repeating

“They care”

“They’ll come back”

“They still want me”

I was wrong

I was neglected

I just wanted to play

I am now 14

I still haven’t played that game

Thinking they cared,

Thinking they wanted to play

They didn’t

I lied

I lied to myself

Hoping they would see

My pain

Tears

Crying myself to sleep

They don’t care

I bet they never noticed

They never saw

What they did to me.