i see you

laughing loudly with your friends

like you want me to hear

i also see you

sitting alone

with only your music for company

i see you 

with your bright smile

pasted on and never faltering

i also see you

running your nails down your arm

over and over

what are you trying to scratch out?

you have split me into two people

i want to comfort you

but you have brought me so much pain

i want to help you

but what help did you bring me?

if i get too close to you

will i fall apart?

can i sacrifice myself

to save you?

can i break myself down

to build you up?

can a build a fire with my mind and heart

just to keep you warm?

i'll always care for you

forever

and ever

until the end of time

and beyond that

but i can't save everyone

this time

i'm choosing to save myself