What I thought was right turned out to be wrong
Weakness took over and I’m not that strong.
I followed the footsteps, it’s all that I knew
Now I am scared of who I turned into.

Trapped in the midst of what I used to be
Alone and so proud but still never free.
I’m under the water and under the lies
I scream but no one hears my cries.

I’m drowning, will someone just throw me a line
I’m losing the battle and losing my mind.
I can’t swim, I’m flailing my arms everywhere
I’m feeling the pressure and breathing no air.

I still don’t know now what I didn’t know then, what I didn’t know then.

My past and my present are waging a war
Leaving me empty, stripped down to the core.
What once was a haven is bringing me pain
Took all that I had, now nothing remains.

My sins take control and I’m eaten alive
What must I atone for so I can survive?
I can’t keep pretending and living a lie
Because under the water you never ask why.
I’m drowning, will someone just throw me a line
I’m losing the battle and losing my mind.
I can’t swim, I’m flailing my arms everywhere
I’m feeling the pressure and breathing no air.

I’m drowning in all of my guilt from before
So save me before I can slip any more.
The waves turn me over and backwards again
I still don’t know now what I didn’t know then.

I still don’t know now what I didn’t know then, what I didn’t know then.

Have I always been treading, just coasting along?

As much as I want it, the future’s not here
For now I’m stuck dealing with all of my fear.
I stop holding my breath, it’s just not worth the fight
I’m swimming in darkness so where is the light?
I still don’t know now what I didn’t know then.
I still don’t know now what I didn’t know…