My brain tells me to scream

My gut tells me to find help

My heart tells me to off myself 

I understand the only thing fake in life are dreams 

I understand the only way ill survive is if I yelp

I understand that to everyone else the most important thing in life is health or wealth

But what if i don't want to keep ticking

What if I just stop kicking 

will they even notice 

or will they be oblivious like walking through a field full of black lotus

Are they capable of telling the difference before something terrible happens, 

cause if they can then im the oblivious one

but I dont think they are capable

Because they all make the mistake of learning something once its gone

And once they realize that it's unmistakenably quiet 

is when they start to cause a riot 

But when that doesn't work is always when they deny it.