It's metallic,
a double sided guilt.
Coppery threads intertwined
our destinies just the same
Somehow, I can't bring myself
to say your name.
Would it have been different?
If we had never met, would
I still feel this pain?
Or is it my fault
that I hurt?
The guilt eats me alive
my skin peels away,
reattaches itself,
peels again...
If it weren't you,
If I had to choose to
replace you on that wet day,
could I do it?
Would I have replaced the ones I told to be safe?
Would I have chosen you over them?
Would I have saved your life?
Its the answer that kills me.
I wish, I wish...
I wish these coppery threads of fate would wind around my throat.
Take my breath away,
Let me see stars,
I will become part of the galaxy,
eternity in a spiraling star pocked abyss.
I deserve your hate, I deserve your haunting. I let myself be relieved that it wasn't her or her or him or them.
It was just you.
Just you.
I'm sorry.