Love is pointless

And I will never believe that

Despite the broken pieces

The world is filled with lily light

Because now I know 

Everything falls apart

Because of us

It’s not true that

You are always beside me

And I know

Joy’s dancing petals

Aren’t much compared to

Pain’s jagged glasses

I’ve felt it all.

We are nothing like family

And words lie when they say

Color can be crafted through tears

Because I know

I will shatter

I don’t believe that

Allowing myself to fall

Means

Letting you catch me

I’ve learned that

Being me isn’t enough, and

Nothing is as false as thinking that

My soul is my happy place.

You don’t understand

Anything

And I can’t say

We are a team

I remember that

I closed my eyes for a while but now

You have faded forever, into the field, and

It’s not true that

Stained glass is beautiful.

(now read backwards)