There are some days that I just can't turn my head the other way and hold my tears back. I see you in the halls, the Awkward eye contact, kills me on the inside and I scream. The pain of losing you, my best friend, my brother. Not only did I lose you, I lost a part of me too, a chunk of my heart was torn when you left me. I will never be the same person again. Without you, I am nothing. But if I had to choose whether to go back to you or spend all my time crying, I would honestly choose the crying. There are still some days that I think I will never get over you, but then I realized that...If you were in my life for that long, and told me you loved me...There would be more than this. There would be more than all this pain...Your gone. And I'm fine, there is nothing in this world that is going to bring me down any further than hat I'm at now. You ruined me....This is the new me, either love me still or give me up again.