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Chaos and Confusion

December 21, 2016
By Depressed-Weirdo-4 BRONZE, Goose Creek, South Carolina
Depressed-Weirdo-4 BRONZE, Goose Creek, South Carolina
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Favorite Quote:
The alphabet begins with ABC, the numbers begin with 123, music begins with do-re-mi, and friendship begins with you and me.


As soon as we walk in the door, chaos started. All I saw was a blur of legs kicking and punches being swung. I stepped back, not wanting to get involved when I heard my sister, Pepper, scream as my mother pushed her into the door handle. I grabbed my mother's arm and yanked her away from Pepper and pushed her against the wall. I screamed,


“Mom! Get away from her and I swear! If you touch her again I am going to call DCF on you like a should have a long time ago!” I let go of her arm and grabbed Peppers arm and pulled her up and pulled her along the hall to her bedroom. I went back out to get Pepper an ice pack when my mom shoved me up against the wall like I did to her and said,


“Don’t you DARE to that to me again or your head is gonna be part of this wall!” I smirked and pushed her away and grabbed Pepper an ice pack. I sat in my room for about an hour and then, my mom came in again. She looked at me and said loudly,


“Why do you stand up for Pepper when you know she was in the wrong? I have always been there for you, unlike your father. At this point, I wish I was the one that left you. Would you be happy then?” That is when I snapped. Everything that I had refrained from telling her in the past just came pouring out like a whirlpool that had been growing inside me for so long and with every word, my anger grew. I had told her how I hated her wife, Lisa, and that I could never think of someone as mean as Lisa as my “mother”. I told her that all she ever did was agree with Lisa, even if she knew it was wrong. I told her how I didn’t want to move with Lisa because Lisa was in the Military and her 4 year term here was up. The final thing was a question for my mom.


“Mom, you know how you have been in three relationships right? One of which you are in now. But, the first two, they both broke up with you. Has it ever occurred to you that maybe your the problem? I wouldn’t be surprised if yours and Lisa’s relationship falls apart too,” I said with a questioning and mocking tone. That shut her up for a while, and so it went. I sat in my room for hours till the point where it was 10:00pm. Then, my mom came in and tried to give me a kiss goodnight, but I walked out of my bedroom and into Pepper’s where I sat there and gave her some good ideas for her story. I walked back to my room and sat there drawing, reading, coloring...anything to get my mind off of what might unfold the next morning when Lisa came home from work. I had so many feelings inside. Hurt, sadness, hate, nervousness, and the feeling I least expected to feel at that time. That feeling was confusion. I was so confused on why I acted how I did, why I said the things I did, and why I asked that question and if I actually did believe it. Then, I cried. Not like a sob, just silent crying. Crying and crying and crying. Everything I had kept in from my girlfriend breaking up with me to this current fight. I cried myself to sleep that night and the two nights after. Chaos and confusion.


The author's comments:

This happen the night of Friday, December 16th, 2016. 

 

I changed the names so my friends couldn't find this article as easy. 

 

Please comment below on what you thought. But don't say sorry, I don't need sorrys. All this makes me stronger in mind and as a person. 

 

Yes, I am Bi-Sexual. If you don't like it, leave. 

Love y'all! 


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on Jan. 10 2017 at 11:35 am
Depressed-Weirdo-4 BRONZE, Goose Creek, South Carolina
3 articles 0 photos 7 comments

Favorite Quote:
The alphabet begins with ABC, the numbers begin with 123, music begins with do-re-mi, and friendship begins with you and me.

It did, and I'm sure it was the same for you.

on Jan. 9 2017 at 9:10 pm
DogloverUSA SILVER, Debary, Florida
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Favorite Quote:
"The truth is that airports have seen more sincere kisses then wedding halls. The walls of hospitals have heard more prayers than the walls of churches."

I'm sorry for your situation too. It definitely takes courage to share something like that.

on Jan. 9 2017 at 9:13 am
Depressed-Weirdo-4 BRONZE, Goose Creek, South Carolina
3 articles 0 photos 7 comments

Favorite Quote:
The alphabet begins with ABC, the numbers begin with 123, music begins with do-re-mi, and friendship begins with you and me.

Omg, I'm so sorry this happened to you. Truly sorry because I know how it feels and I've been in your shoes many times before. This has been going on for several years now and probably a lot more.

on Jan. 8 2017 at 6:45 pm
DogloverUSA SILVER, Debary, Florida
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Favorite Quote:
"The truth is that airports have seen more sincere kisses then wedding halls. The walls of hospitals have heard more prayers than the walls of churches."

I truly liked this piece, and I can most certainly relate. See when I was younger I went throught the same type of stuff only it was from someone that I trusted and admired, my oldest sister. After my mom and brother passed she changed from this amazing person to this horrific animal. She constantly made fun of me, bullied me, abused me, turned her kids against me, and destroyed me at such a young age. I suppose it made since though I meant her dad abused my mom and her husband abused her so how could I expect anything less? After a good beating she would go either to her friends house or she'd go to sleep, completely obvious to her husband molesting me and me trying to fight back. I tried to be the type of strong you were for your sister against your mom, but the fight got harder and harder for me and eventually I just let it all happen. For seven years.