Dear Daddy,
Hey daddy i know we just talked yesterday
But i thought i would write you this letter saying all the things i really want to say to you
Number One:You were the first man to ever break my heart
When you left me mama and my sisters all alone with nothing
So you could go live with your girlfriend and two sons
That broke my heart.
Number Two:You ruined my childhood
Because you only gave us $40 a week to live of of
Me and my mom and sisters had to go door to door
Selling vegetables we grew in a garden we chopped with shovels
Blackberries we picked from thorns
Pecans we walked miles to get and sat up all night shelling
We did that just to have clothes and food
The only way to stay warm was a kerosine heater
It's very embarrassing to go to church smelling like kerosine
No wonder the girls there bullied me
My socks had holes in them
My clothes were to small
And i reeked of kerosine
Number Three:You never cared about me
Even if you were too selfish to give us money you could have given me a hug
I will never forget all the times i waited for you
And you never showed up
I will always remember the way i cried at night because you didn't love me
How i was sure it was my fault
I would run to the end of the driveway when you passed
Most of the time you didn't even look at me
Number Four:You're the reason i'm insecure
When your dad the one man in life
That's supposed to love unconditionally
Leaves you so he can go live with another family
Well it hurts and it makes you wonder
Was it me? Did i do something?
Why am i not good enough?
What makes them better than me?
I felt like if my dad can't love me what guy can?
Number Five:You're the reason i don't trust men
Why should i?
The only man i've known is you and if that is an example i'm glad i don't trust them
The other man is my brother who i haven't spoken to in five years
That's your fault too
If you'd been there for him he wouldn't have left us
So men scare me and make nervous and i don't trust them at all
Number Six:I want to hate you
After everything you put me through
After all the pain you've caused me
I should hate you
But i don't
Because i just can't
Believe me i've tried
I'm just not built that way

P.S. There is one good thing,one good thing i left out.Because of everything you did you made me a strong person,a survivor and a fighter.For that i want to say thank you.