早上，我背上书包开始学习。柔和的光线照在玻璃上，让教室明亮起来。我的教室在四楼，这正是鸟类最常出现的高度。鸟儿总是在早晨最吵闹。一切都很好。但直到视频画面开始，画面上的人都是由黑、白、灰组成的，这让我想起了上个世纪无色的动画片。不管怎样，唯一不同的是，周围的老师和同学都安静了，气氛变得沉重而肃穆。

“他们是谁？这些孩子怎么了？”

我的目光从幼稚的照片移到了旁边的文字，[学校拍摄]

 在我眼里，这两个字在一堆字里被放大了。

“小学生们！他们在学校被枪杀”此时视频中说[2022年5月24日在罗布小学。一名18岁的萨尔瓦多·拉莫斯，一名学校前学生，枪杀了19名学生和两名老师，鞭打它其他人受伤但幸存]

我开始害怕这些死去的人，害怕他们是多么无辜。这些孩子和我一样都是学生。他们像往常一样去学校，但是那天他们没有回家。 

“同样的事情也会发生在我身上吗？” 

这个猜测在我的脑海中不断滋长。教室里的寂静带来了一种发言的气氛，让我在这几分钟里工作起来

我打开书包，拿出钥匙，打开电脑，快速在谷歌上输入【校园枪击】。

有新闻和视频，我先点开了视频。暖黄灯光下的走廊一片寂静，脚步声震耳欲聋。两个人缓缓前行，突然转身狂奔。其中一个甚至摔倒了，但他很快站起来，又跑了。场景变成了凶手拿着大枪在走廊上行走。此刻，教室里的孩子们笼罩在黑暗之中。

我心里想，藏起来，别被人揭穿。虽然我知道结果，但还是希望这些孩子和老师们都能平平安安的生活。

“他进教室了！他进来了”

我的嘴因紧张而不断分泌口水，一段本以为无声的视频却发出可怕的声音，每次听到声音，就有人死了，就有人死了，我的眼睛湿润了，泪水从脸颊流到下巴。

那些死去的孩子中最大的可能有10岁，最小的可能有8岁。我为他们感到难过。

伤心的同时，我内心也有一丝动静。我打开手机，四秒后给朋友发了一条“我好害怕”的信息，“什么？” “死神，今天的大新闻你应该知道些什么！”我点击进入。6秒后“是校园枪击事件吗？是的，我知道”我打字很快“你知道我是学生，就像这些孩子一样，他们也是学生，也会去学校，我们和他们没有区别，他们今天无辜死去，我担心有一天我会成为他们中的一员”，表情符号哭泣。 

我无奈地坐在电脑前一遍又一遍地观看相关视频。今晚的时间仿佛暂停了。

当我试图摆脱这种情绪时，我打开了YouTube，准备通过电视节目来转移我的注意力，但失败了。我看到一个视频，标题为<拜登总统…..德克萨斯州…..shooting-5/24/2022>我点击了视频里的声音变得沉重而安静，门打开了，演讲开始了。在这8分30秒的时间里，我的脑海里一直有一个问题“有多少人因为枪支而死亡，有多少人为此感到悲伤”太多了！

I like Mr.President's saying: “That we will not forget,we can do so much more,we have to do more”This sentence gives me hope,which shows that the government and some people are trying to solve this problem.

The time came on March 27, 2023, a busy Monday morning. Thousands of kilometers away from me, a heartbreaking event was happening. 7 hours later, it was exactly 3pm, and I was sitting in front of the computer browsing Youtube. The familiar word "Shooting" appeared in my eyes again. There is also a "Nashville" in front

"What is this place?"

"It's in Tennessee, it's the South"

My body seems to have a kind of PTSD from the word "Shooting". My heart will become heavy and my curiosity will drive me to click on this video.

“Are you sure you want to open it? This will waste your entertainment time! The point is that Nashville is far away from you, and that’s none of your business.”

"No, it's important for me to know this. Even though I'm not from this state, it still has something to do with me. Because I also live in this country."

I clicked on the video,the video opens with the host introducing the entire shooting process. A 28-year-old transgender man killed three 9-year-old children and three adults before being shot to death by two police officers within 15 minutes. After the host finished speaking, the video came to the school surveillance camera at the time. The bright and clean school entrance was suddenly shattered by bullets, and glass was scattered everywhere. Then a trans man wearing a red hood walked into the school over shards of glass, holding a gun longer than his arm.

"I don't think anyone would like to see the color red and a gun at the same time unless it's a cold killer."

I can’t see how this transgender man killed 6 living lives in 15 minutes, and I don’t dare to imagine such a scene. I feel sad for these 6 lives, but at the same time I feel angry. Why can such a person walk into campus with such a long gun unscrupulously? Why would such a person have a gun? How could anyone sell such a dangerous and violent weapon to such an impulsive and cold-blooded person? If there were security personnel at the school gate, if gun sellers could carefully inspect and ask the person about the purpose of buying a gun, and if the country's laws on gun control were more stringent, then these 6 people would not have died, and there might be more than 6 , more people will survive.

"There is no if in the world, the fact is that it cannot be changed"

No one can change what happened, but the future can be changed.

Time has continued to increase, and similar shootings have continued to increase because of time until today. But thanks to the development of the Internet, I can see the efforts of people thousands of miles away to control guns and reduce shootings.

我看到数百人在田纳西州国会大厦抗议加强枪支管制，高呼“帮助我们，拯救我们。我们的生命很重要”，“拯救我们的孩子”。

“他们这样喊叫有什么意义？”

是的，在我眼里，这些抗议者是如此勇敢和伟大，他们正在做这个国家最有意义、最有价值的事情。只见从他们嘴里说出的话变成了一个高大的巨人，而这个巨人正在拯救那个即将被枪杀的人。但数量太少，巨人太少，子弹又太多。人们仍在死于它。

我的心在尖叫“做吧！现在！抗议！”

但我的大脑理性地说：“你确定吗？！我是如此卑微和渺小。因为我不是总统、国会议员或市长。我的权力很小。谁在乎我这样一个普通学生怎么想？”

我的心：“是的，会有人关心我的想法。会有人倾听我的想法，也会有人因为我的想法而改变这样的规则。”

大脑：“既然如此，那就动手吧！也许我也能成为进步时代的黑幕揭发者。”

心：“但是我需要人，更多和我观点相同的人。”

我们的国家需要更严格的枪支法，因为我觉得卖枪的商店就像超市里的猪肉柜台一样随意。任何心情不好的人都可以买一个或多个，任何人都可以成为杀手。这有多可怕？

我想告诉更多的人，让他们知道这个国家很多地方都存在枪击事件，而不仅仅是学校。就像地铁、街道、医院一样，任何公共场所随时都会发生枪林弹雨。如果有人对此不屑一顾、无动于衷，那么未来的某一天，命运的齿轮就会开始转动，一颗子弹就会击中那个人的眉心。因此，此时此刻呼吁管制枪支的人不仅是在保护他人，也是在保护自己、家人、孩子和朋友。