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Thinker

November 30, 2021
By Anonymous

     I am a thinker. I think like I breathe, constantly and without reason. Chaotically and emotionally. Quietly but deeply. I think about the dust that sits atop every untouched book on every standing bookcase. I think about how lonely the pages of those books must be. I think about how the spines must feel once they’re finally opened. I overthink thoughts that have already been overthought yet somehow It still feels like I’m not thinking enough. When I think about the future, all the “what ifs” transcend the confines of my own consciousness. These thoughts make me want to speed up time and see just how many of them are real. What if I can’t be happy? What if life gives up on me? What if it just doesn’t work out? But then again...what if it does? When the doubt is gone and the fear diminishes my thoughts turn hopeful. I think about the way my future will surprise me with a hug from a stranger or an open door of opportunity. My future alone won’t allow me to sit still, so my body, like my mind, cannot be contained. I constantly run through the possibilities of success, love, happiness, peace. Unencumbered by the lumbering weight of the possibilities of hate, failure, or heartbreak. In those moments, when the silence grows too loud, thinking isn’t enough. I feel, I understand, I imagine. My thoughts are no longer who I am, they are what I aspire to be.


The author's comments:

I was given an assignment by a teacher a few years ago to find a label or an individual characteristic to write a descriptive narration about. I was having a difficult time labeling myself as a single thing. I spent so much time thinking about it that I just decided to label myself a thinker. This is the descriptive narrative that I wrote. 


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on Dec. 6 2021 at 9:30 am
mattyappleseed BRONZE, Lewisville, Texas
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Beautifully written, such an ambiguous interpretation of oneself. Loved the correlation between your thoughts and something as involuntary as breathing!