My family disgusts me in many ways. Like, they're ignorant. I'm not saying they're stupid, but more like oblivious..in a sense. So close minded and superficial. The thing that gets me the most about them is that they just won't TRY to understand. or try to see through my eyes. I'm the pariah. I'm the one that when everyone else is laughing at something, I'll be the one to say,"I don't get it." They're all just so alike. Each of my family members are just so similar. I wonder often how it is that I am even allowed to live there. I hate not fitting in, especialy with my family.

I don't think I'm what they expected. I don't think I belong. I'm never heard, noticed, thought of...It hurts soemtimes to be the odd one.