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When I Hated My Body MAG

June 20, 2014
By CallMeAria PLATINUM, Vancouver, Other
CallMeAria PLATINUM, Vancouver, Other
30 articles 27 photos 73 comments

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EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON :)


When I was eleven, I thought my body was disgusting.
It hadn't always been that way.
When I was ten years old I was all right with what my body was.
I ate if I was hungry
and I ran if I wanted to run,
but if I didn't want to run, I didn't,
and it was all right.
Then I began to watch television and I saw girls in music videos
and people began to give me their opinions.
“Wow, she's gotten so … big now.”
And they taught me how to hate myself.
It took me a long time to begin to like myself again.
Piece by piece, picture by picture,
I embraced the plumpness of my calves,
the little crumples of skin around my armpits,
the out-of-line hairs in my eyebrows,
the blotchiness of my skin.
I saw pictures from long ago,
Renaissance and Baroque,
of women
bathing, dressing, staring intensely at the viewer.
They do not have flat stomachs,
their thighs are bubbled,
their breasts do not perk upwards.
They are human
in an honest and all-baring way
and it is what makes them beautiful.
It is what makes me beautiful,
and it is what makes you beautiful,
your humanity and your reality,
in a completely imperfect way.


The author's comments:
Just a little realistic piece...

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Livbrown said...
on Feb. 21 2016 at 7:19 pm
Livbrown, Sioux Falls, South Dakota
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This is so good! I used to feel the exact same way. There was a time where I was just so ashamed and didn't come out of my room for awhile. This is a beautiful piece!

on Nov. 8 2014 at 3:08 pm
Positivity_At_Its_Finest DIAMOND, Morrow, Georgia
56 articles 2 photos 148 comments

Favorite Quote:
Life is a stage, get on it and perform your best act.

great job. i used to be very insecure about myself, then I just started to take better care of myself and now I'm in a way better position. Just be healthy and everything else will fall in line, I'm now confident in who I am and what I look like. :)

on Jul. 21 2014 at 11:10 am
CallMeAria PLATINUM, Vancouver, Other
30 articles 27 photos 73 comments

Favorite Quote:
EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON :)

Thanks ^.^

on Jul. 20 2014 at 9:49 pm
Caesar123 DIAMOND, Union Grove, Wisconsin
50 articles 7 photos 103 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Madness in great ones must not unwatched go" --Claudius in William Shakespeare's Hamlet

Not bad. I liked it.