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only chaos

January 21, 2013
By MaryRoach BRONZE, Hutchinson, Minnesota
MaryRoach BRONZE, Hutchinson, Minnesota
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i cannot find

words

to make something out of nothing

i cannot find peace

to make hope out of chaos

i cannot find light

to make beauty out of darkness

darkness

darkness all around-

surrounding

crippling

tearing

rending;

making me loathe myself and all i have ever been

and not been.

who am i?-

they tell me-

they try to define me-

worthless,

clinging,

sliding,

desperate,

selfish,

and falling-

at last-

alone.


The author's comments:
This is from a period of my life that's in the past: being defined by those who bully others.
It took a lot just to express these feelings; to say "No, what you say does not define. What you say is not who I am."
I choose not to be destroyed any longer by an identity I did not choose.

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on Jan. 25 2013 at 11:25 pm
MaryRoach BRONZE, Hutchinson, Minnesota
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I'd appreciate any thoughts/feedback you might have. Thank you!