And you'd think I'd hate you but I don't cuz I can't after all you've done to me
drilled this hole started by the other one
sometimes I can't stand seeing you but then I can't turn away in disgust but in pain
My mask is on all of the time now. When i'm alone at night I force it off and sigh
my mask used to just hang by a thread and now it's stuck until I find the one again who can see right through and store it away
now the other one is in front and I'm being so careful. I should despise you but I can't my heart would be lieing and won't let me. So I miss you and put on the mask the mask of lies. You seen fine but I don't know and never will. We won't be friends we were too close once too caring
I love you now and you don't love me you broke my heart and i'm still here putting the pieces together like a puzzle and wishing wished on eyelashes didn't fail like so.
You'd think I'd hate and despise your very soul but mine would be in agony forever if I did. So I sit here and miss you trying to continue by repairing the mask day after day
what happened to us I don't really know it seems with that time apart our connection loosened. You were more mature and I wishing differently. It became a matter of survival but I still loved you like no else. You were more different and bored then you stabbed me and left a hole that causes pain or sorrow.
The dark is now my friend i'm becoming the shadow again something I don't want to be. I just want to be me and is that I don't know and you sorta did. You'd think i'd hate you but I don't cuz I can't even after all you've done to me drilled this hole started by the other on. Sometimes I won't stand to see you but I can't turn away in disgust but in pain. I repair the mask everyday force it off at night and sigh the pain will numb i'll still love you as I can, i'll fix the mask again and again until the one comes along who will see right through it
you'd think I'd hate you but I don't so I sit here and miss you....