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May 24, 2009
By awesomeaugust GOLD, Boston, Massachusetts
awesomeaugust GOLD, Boston, Massachusetts
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Favorite Quote:
"Keep your eyes on the stars and your feet on the ground"
~Theordore Roosevelt


I didn't want to like him. He was just so charming.

This might sound like every other love story, and it may be, but it may not. If you don't read on, you'll never know.

My name is Emily Brown, which I've always been quite happy with. I think it makes me sound pleasant but ordinary, and I prefer to blend in. Now, I suppose it's only polite to tell you a bit about myself before I jump into my story. I am five feet, two inches, have brown hair that comes to my shoulders, and I am not talented in any special way. These are the basic facts of me, and I think these are all I ought to tell you.

His name was Andrew Rivers and he was perfectly wonderful in every way. When he first came to my school in twelfth grade, he was a bit eccentric and didn't fit in right away. He was into music and played the drums and the guitar, although he wasn't good at either. What he was good at was singing, and when he did, you wanted to cry and laugh and sing along with him all at once.

My name is Emily Brown and his was Andrew Rivers and I loved him.

About two months into my last year of high school, Andrew asked me out. I was surprised since I had hardly ever talked to him, but I didn't have a boyfriend, and I didn't know how to say no.

It may help you to know that at my school there were couples that were simply together for the name, and some that were together only to have a date for dances and for kissing and other such things. When Andrew asked me out I had no idea what his intentions were, and I didn't like having no idea. I'm by no means a confrontational person, but I was starting to feel offended that after I had said that I would date him, he hadn't said another word to me. So I went up to him and we had a little talk.

Me: “Hey, Andrew.”

Andrew: “Hey.”

Me: “So …”

Andrew: (annoyingly, nothing)

Me: “You asked me out.”

Andrew: (nothing again)

Me: “Why?”

Andrew: “Why'd I ask you out?”

Me: “Right.”

Andrew: “I felt like it.”

Me: (irritated) “You felt like it?”

Andrew: “That's what I said, isn't it?”

Me: (infuriated) “I'm sorry. Actually I'm not. I didn't realize you were such a jerk, and I don't want to go out with you anymore.” (I'd never dumped someone before, okay?)

Andrew: “Are you dumping me?”

Me: “What do you think?”

Andrew: “Why?”

Me: “I feel like it.”

Andrew: (smiling) “Do you like Chinese food?”

Me: “I hate it.”

Andrew: “You've never had it.”

Me: “How do you know?”

Andrew: (laughing) “I'm good at reading people.”

Me: “Well, obviously you suck, because I've had Chinese food a million times and I hated it every time.”

Andrew: “Would you like to go out with me tonight?”

Me: “You're asking me on a date?”

Andrew: “Yes.”

Me: “Read my answer.”

Andrew: “Wonderful! I'll see you tonight. Be ready by six. Ish. Sixish.”

I hated this strange boy who I'd only really talked to twice. He made me infuriated. The only problem was, I couldn't figure out if I liked that or not.

That night at sixish sharp, Andrew showed up at my doorstep. My parents have never been into meeting my boyfriends, but as I was stepping out, he stepped in. He walked right into the living room where my parents sat watching the baseball game.

When he came back out I asked, “What'd you say?”

“I told them I'd have you back by eight.”

“Ish?”

He laughed. “Nope. Just eight.”

We didn't talk much on the car ride. He had a CD playing that sounded kind of like Bob Marley, but I'd never heard the song before. It wasn't until we got there that I realized I didn't know where we were going. A small sign stood in front of the building but the name was too peeled away for me to be able to read it. What I could read was the sign beneath where the name should be, and it said, “The best Chinese cuisine for miles.”

“Chinese, huh?”

He smirked.

We walked inside and it was only then that I realized exactly how small the building was. There were little tables in the center of the room, about five of them, and a couch against one wall for sitting while you waited. As if. There was no waiting; we were the only customers. A sign read “PLEASE SEAT YOURSELF,” but I guess because of the lack of business, a waiter came over to seat us. He tried to show us to a table, but Andrew said, “Oh, no, thank you. We'll be sitting down here.”

He strolled over to the couch and at first I thought he wanted us to sit there, but then he grabbed two pillows and placed them on the ground a little way away from the tables.

I looked at him, baffled.

“Authenticity,” he said, smiling. He was always smiling.

I, personally, couldn't see how sitting on the floor was authentic.

***

There were many other dates, all very unusual. I was used to dances and movies, but with Andrew I got sunsets and local concerts. Once he took me to a bingo night that his aunt was hosting. Oddly enough, that was the night we first kissed.

I remember so clearly the day of graduation, the day I realized that Andrew and I wouldn't always be together. After we threw our hats and got our diplomas, he found me.

“End of high school, huh?” he said.

“Yeah.”

“What do you want to do, Emily?”

“With my life?”

“Sure.”

“Be with you.”

He didn't smile like I wanted him to.

“Don't you want to go to college?”

I sighed. “Want to, or have to?”

Now he smiled. “You choose.”

“I should. Go to college, I mean. I found one that'll accept me.”

There was a long pause before I said, “Andrew, what about you?”

“What about me?”

“What are you gonna do?”

“I dunno. Do what I do best, I guess. Play my music.”

“Oh. Yeah. That's cool. See you later?”

“When would I see you?”

“I see what you mean.”

“Bye, Emily.”

“Bye.”

Thinking back, I wish I had said something better than bye. I wish I had told him that I loved him more than words could describe and that when he sang to me I felt like I was all that mattered in the world. I wanted to tell him that if he had just asked, I wouldn't have gone to college. I would have played his music with him.

I'm sitting at my computer right now, looking at a name on the screen on a website called “peoplefinder.” I want to call him and hear his voice, but I'm afraid. I'm afraid that he won't be my same Andrew.

I get a glass of cold water and sit on my couch. I picture myself having one last conversation with him.

Me: “Hey, Andrew.” (I say it so casually, just like old times.)

Andrew: “Hey, Emily.”

Me: “Why are you wearing a tie?”

Andrew: “Why shouldn't I be?”

Me: “I don't know.”

Andrew: “I have a job.”

Me: “Good.”

Andrew: “I'm a lawyer, Emily.”

Me: “That's great.”

Andrew: “You don't sound like that's great.”

Me: “Don't I?”

Andrew: “I live in an apartment in the city. I talk on the phone with other businesspeople.”

Me: “I'm proud of you.”

Andrew: “I have a diploma hanging up on the wall of my office. My office.”

Me: “Do you play music anymore, Andrew?”

Andrew: “Music.”

He looks at me as if he doesn't remember the word.

Andrew: “No, I don't play my music anymore.”

Me: “Oh.”

Me: “I loved you, Andrew.”

Andrew: “Loved? Past tense?”

Me: “I think so.”

Andrew: “I love you.”

Me: “Why'd you ask me out?”

Andrew: “I thought you were beautiful and smart, and I loved how shiny your dark brown hair was. I liked how you weren't too loud, and you didn't wear low-cut shirts like most other girls.”

Me: “I wish you'd said, ‘Because I felt like it.'”

Andrew: “Sorry.”

Me: “Me too.”

Andrew: “I have to be going.”

Me: “Yeah.”

Me: “Wait!”

Andrew: “Yes?”

Me: “I'd never had Chinese food before.”



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on Apr. 17 2010 at 9:48 am
awesomeaugust GOLD, Boston, Massachusetts
10 articles 0 photos 176 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Keep your eyes on the stars and your feet on the ground"
~Theordore Roosevelt

Sorry you didn't like it, but thank you for the feedback. I definitely didn't mean for Andrew to seem feeling-less...do you have an idea where I went wrong? And yes, I'm getting around to looking at everyone's work and commenting, so I look forward to seeing yours!

~Sofia~


Mspi18 BRONZE said...
on Apr. 15 2010 at 9:55 pm
Mspi18 BRONZE, Lawrence, New York
1 article 5 photos 20 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Outside of a dog, a book is man's best friend. Inside of a dog, it's too dark to read."
Groucho Marx

This was truly beautiful. I loved it. It was really easy to picture in my mind and how you described everything was with amazing thought because there wasn't too much detail but not too little, so to give readers some room for imagination. Keep Writing! 

on Apr. 13 2010 at 8:10 pm
ImWatchingYou BRONZE, McFarland, Wisconsin
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That was the best thing I've read so far! That was AMAZING!

crazy123 GOLD said...
on Apr. 13 2010 at 7:13 pm
crazy123 GOLD, Gibsonia, Pennsylvania
11 articles 0 photos 22 comments

Favorite Quote:
when life gives you lemons.. make applejuice to avoid the situation!

that was so cute

on Apr. 13 2010 at 6:57 pm
COURTneyyy27 SILVER, Boise, Idaho
5 articles 6 photos 25 comments
Beautiful! I love romance...I just wish it wasn't so heartbreaking. You portrayed that sooo well in here! FABULOUS! Keep writing darling :)

on Apr. 13 2010 at 6:03 pm
GrishkoPrincess SILVER, Pierz, Minnesota
8 articles 0 photos 26 comments

Favorite Quote:
My love for you is like a metal rose, it will never die.

Oh my gods I love this! Amazing!

eed1336 said...
on Apr. 13 2010 at 4:00 pm
eed1336, Roanoke Rapids, North Carolina
0 articles 0 photos 1 comment

Favorite Quote:
"Sometimes things fall apart so better things can fall together."

This wasn't the ordinary love story, I loved it!!!

Good Job!


on Apr. 13 2010 at 9:14 am
CanYouSeeTheCrazy PLATINUM, Cle Elum, Washington
21 articles 0 photos 125 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I know why everyone in this world is so desperate to find love."
"Oh yeah? Why then?"
"Because, it's the closest thing we have to magic."

i loved it at well! it was totally unexpected, and i love how it didn't really end, because she was just imagining that conversation, but it seems like that would be a good way to end. i was totally unprepared for it, though. you completely threw that change of course at me, and i liked how you did that. you're a great writer, keep it up. =]

on Apr. 10 2010 at 12:05 am
liltrinhle SILVER, Raleigh, North Carolina
8 articles 6 photos 37 comments

very different and intersting. I like it, and i like how you threw me off with the ending. I like endings that i didnt think of!

wel done


on Mar. 22 2010 at 10:23 pm
Green8a8 SILVER, NY, New York
8 articles 1 photo 161 comments

Favorite Quote:
im the author of my life, unfortunately im writing in pen therefore i can't erase nothing about it.-by some crazy friend of mine

this was a total new diferent way of writing it was very very good, you have a gift i seriously thought this was the most creative and romantic stories. LOVED IT I GIVE IT 100 OUT OF 10

on Mar. 22 2010 at 12:15 pm
MissFaber SILVER, Wayne, New Jersey
5 articles 0 photos 156 comments

Favorite Quote:
Nothing Less.

im sorry i didnt like it at all. I mean it was written well it's just that i hate guys with no feeling, guys like andrew. It's SO infuriating. but so many are like that.... :(

could you comment and rate on my stories?

on Mar. 22 2010 at 6:57 am
Bella913 SILVER, New City, New York
5 articles 0 photos 30 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Death is easy, living is harder."

this was so amazing!!! emily actually has my description. 5 foot 2 is my height and i have brown hair up to my shoulders. does she have green eyes too??

on Mar. 20 2010 at 3:08 am
xoxoLissieM SILVER, Manila, Other
6 articles 0 photos 23 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Stop acting dumb cause your usually the smart one and I'm the dumb one!"

i luv the line 'because i felt lyk it'..nice job!!

on Mar. 19 2010 at 12:52 pm
LiveLaughSIng13 BRONZE, Scottsdale, Arizona
1 article 0 photos 4 comments

Favorite Quote:
You're only as tall as the world will let you be, and you're only as small as the world will make you seem. But when the going gets rough and you feel like you may fall just look on the brightside you're roughly six feet tall."- NeverShoutNever

This was great! I enjoyed it because I felt like it. ;)

on Mar. 11 2010 at 2:43 pm
Katiebrox3 BRONZE, Cape Coral, Florida
2 articles 0 photos 5 comments

Favorite Quote:
We loved with a love that was more than love. - Edgar Allan Poe

That almost made me cry, haha.

I LOVED it. Please, please keep up the good writing. You'll go far with it. <3

on Mar. 8 2010 at 8:36 pm
ChristianCowgirlCC SILVER, Wellington, Kansas
6 articles 2 photos 24 comments

Favorite Quote:
Galatians 1:10
"Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ."

Awh!! That was adorable. Sad, almost. Very emotional. And it was very well written, great job. (:

payton said...
on Mar. 8 2010 at 2:40 pm
wow keep it up way to write how u feel bout things thats wat makes a great writer.

Lovejunky123 said...
on Mar. 4 2010 at 4:50 pm
Lovejunky123, East Meadow, New York
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Aww!!! it so so cute what he though of you

on Mar. 4 2010 at 1:33 pm
Dutchess BRONZE, Leland, North Carolina
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Favorite Quote:
The least deviation from truth is multiplied later a thousand fold.
~Alexander Hamilton

you are a PHENOMENAL writer! i love writing, but i wish i got this kind of inspiration ALL the time. keep writing! i'm begging you. KEEP WRITING!!!!

on Mar. 1 2010 at 8:53 am
PoetLaureate07 PLATINUM, Aberdeen, Mississippi
32 articles 0 photos 246 comments

Favorite Quote:
To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing..

AWWW!! This was so pretty!!! I wish there could be a sequel!! This story is too amazing to not have a sequel.... I hate cliffhangers, but this one was wonderful!!!