With a numbness in her stomach she dialed his number. She knew it by heart. It went straight to voice mail. "Hi It's James, leave a message!" Even the beep sounded friendly after his warm voice. SHe thought for a bit, she had so much to say but no idea how to get it out. "I'm sad" she sighed into the phone. Her voice was low, barely a whisper. Silence met her like a brick in the small of her back. "We miss you" she whispered with tears in her eyes. She hung up and looked out her window to the darkening sky. Why did YOU have to leave? She thought quietly to all the stars peaking out. And it hit her. She will never see him again, not his annoyed face or his half smirk. No, she will never hear him laugh or sing along to the records he would always play for her. She would never go on another adventure to the park with him where they would swing and talk for hours. He was gone for good. Her knees buckled and she couldn't breathe. Tears flooded the valleys of her face. Gasping for breath she crawled into her bed and waited hours for sleep to rock her into a gentle dream.