There are words that escape my lips without my permission, and ones that wont come forth no matter how hard I try to push them threw my teeth. I listen to the rain pounding on my roof and I want to scream but I can't. I just can't. I must keep my voice down. Inside voice they'll yell...inside voice.. But inside voices, the voices that actually reside inside of me are far to loud to keep quiet.
I must press my lips tight together, a barely there line across my face.
My hands tremble and shake and here it comes, that inevitable sob escaping from my throat again. There they come, the tears, falling like the rain that's slamming onto my roof.